Beauty from ashes

The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners,[a] 2 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, 3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion— to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor. – Isaiah 61: 1-3

Your bad things will turn out to be ultimate good things.
Your good things can never be taken away from you.
And the best things are yet to come.



Haven’t been here in awhile (not that anyone reads this) but even for myself, I should come on here more often, to recollect my thoughts and just write for memory’s sake as well.

Just been busy from the busy-ness of life. I should still write in here more often than not. And not when something has gone “wrong” persay.

Fortunately, I’m writing here today not because something bad has happened, but I just happened to remember this and wanted to write in here.

Alot has happened, most good, some not-so-good, but ah, that is life, no?

Year 2 has begun, I’m thankful, hopeful, scared, nervous, challenged, and excited. I’m glad to be back :] However, I can definitely see that I can’t keep up with these long hours. I’m not sure if its just my body aging or if its just my body can’t handle it anymore. Whatever it may be, let me be wise to rest when needed and to work with diligence and strength.

Thank you

Thank you for the prayers, the calls, the messages, the emails, etc.

I’m sorry though that I have not gotten back to most, if not all, of you. For one, its hard to talk about such a delicate topic online/phone, even in person, its hard for me. I don’t know how to bring it up, and even if its brought up, I don’t know what to say. I think part of it is because I don’t want to talk about it too because I don’t want to think about it. I know you might think I’m silly because I put it up as a facebook status, but it really was to ask for prayers, not for any other reason. But, I know I would be confronted/asked about and such. It’s just hard to say anything about it though. I know, as individuals, we share our burdens, and I know how much sharing a burden can help, but this burden, I don’t want to put upon anyone else, it’s a burden I don’t want, and a burden I don’t want others to have as well. But I know, as well, that I should, but it still is very difficult to do so. So please don’t take it personally if I didn’t directly respond to you. I will try though, one by one, to get back to those messages. I should talk about it, I should think about it. Not to an unhealthy excessive amount. Just think about it, but with God next to me, so the thoughts do not overcome me in a negative way.

But the messages are definitely appreciated. I am very thankful to have people in my life that do truly care for me and my mom. Such a blessing in these dark times.

Thank you once again, and if you could continue those prayers, it would be greatly appreciated.


What Does It Mean to Remember Jesus in the Lord’s Supper?

What Does It Mean to Remember Jesus in the Lord’s Supper?

One of the things encouraging me is the current resurgence of understanding the ongoing application of the gospel. Christians today regularly hear that the gospel is believed once for salvation but is reapplied daily. The gospel rhythm isn’t one-and-done but rinse and repeat. This growing awareness of what it means “to preach the gospel to ourselves daily” or to “apply the gospel” might give us some insight as to how we look to Christ and again receive his grace as we eat the bread and drink the cup of the Lord’s Supper.

Every time we take communion the gospel is proclaimed, and we believe and embrace it again—in other words, we remember. My hope is that Christians come to the Lord’s Table with eagerness and expectancy, believing this is not a dull religious ceremony but a spiritual gospel experience.

Where the Poor are Welcomed

Where the Poor are Welcomed

Tim Be Told – The Battle Hymn – Lyric Video (w/ Jae Jin, Michelle Chae, Psalm Bird, Calie Garrett)

What People Are Really Thinking When They Invite you to Church

What People Are Really Thinking When They Invite you to Church

“God helps those who cannot help themselves, those who know they can’t help themselves, those who admit they can’t help themselves, and those who cry out to Him for help.”
-Nancy Leigh DeMoss

Remembering my mission

I havent written in here in awhile and I have much to say as much as been happening lately, but I’m going to focus on one of my struggles for this post.

These past few weeks, I’ve been struggling, where I started feeling that everyday was just a routine, and I was just doing them for the sake of doing them. I would start having this feeling of emptiness where I felt numb to things around me- that my daily life was just a robotic routine that would just start all over again the next day. My first project was really exciting and fun, however, when I started my 2nd project, that excitement was gone. I just didn’t like what I was working on. And it’s my job to make it exciting, however, I didn’t. And it definitely showed in my work. And I just felt in many ways, a failure. Not living up to my professors expectations/approval, my peers approval, and of course even my own. I felt like if I was here, I need to do well. I need to do my best, however, my best could only go so far as I am frequently tired and just not refreshed on a daily basis due to all my other work. I felt like I was failing and even everyday, my emotions would be based on whether my professor liked my work.

But my identity is in Christ. And I know that, and I know I’ve been struggling with this. My approval is from God and from God only.

Today though, I don’t know what it was. But something clicked. The sermon was about living out for our city- pleading for our city. The message doesn’t have really anything to do with anything with something clicking, but I guess just the fact that it was how we can serve our city- that clicked.

I remembered why I was doing this. Why I’m doing architecture. I guess since I started school, somewhere along the way, I became self-absorbed and thought unconsciously that this is all for me. That all my efforts and accomplishments were my own and that’s why I would be so disappointed in myself when things would go poorly. I was thinking that in the end, all of these things I learned would just be for me.

But then I remembered today. That its for God and His Kingdom. That I started doing this because in the end, I want to help others. God always put in my heart to be missional, whether at home or anywhere else, just to be missional. Whether it was small or big. And He reminded me once again to be missional. One of my life goals is to go to 3rd world countries and build hospitals/homes/buildings for those in need. Whether that’s in God’s plan or not, I’m not sure. But I know He will use what I learn somehow to help those in need, whether its here or overseas, in some way or another. And He reminded me that this isn’t for myself, that’s not at all what this is about. That in itself, actually lifts a huge burden off of me. Because knowing that this is for others and for God and about furthering His Kingdom- gives me strength and strength to go on. Especially since I’ve been feeling just so drained lately. Knowing that what I will learn will somehow help others gives me a reason to go on and do my best.

I’ve been realizing just how incompetent I am and just how lacking I am. Academically, emotionally, spiritually. But through these struggles, I can see God working in me, little by little, breaking me down, and I am thankful for that. For His continual guidance in my life, even when I am so unaware of and so oblivious to it. It’s amazing to know that His work is being done all the time. Praise God! I also thank Him for bringing me back to Him. I’ve strayed for a bit, but one bible study (sept 27 2013) reminded me just how much I do need Him. How my fast paced life does need some time to just slow down and just be reminded of His glory and His greatness. Everytime I think about maybe not going to church or bible study, I think of that moment, I think of that moment I felt when I was just praising Him and singing out songs of worship and how I felt. I felt such a sense of peace and such warmth. And just the sermon from the past few weeks ago about Sarah’s laughter of doubt that changed into laughter of joy just hit me so emotionally and pulled my heart strings. Although that story is for another day :]

I know that just because I have reminded of this, it doesn’t mean there will be drastic changes. I know that I will continually struggle with this and I know I will have days where I’ll go back to my old ways, but I’m hoping that this will be a small step to for greater days to come. So please keep me in your prayers that I won’t forget my mission and that this is all for His glory and for His kingdom.

Praise Him for all that He’s doing in my life. :]